Elizabeth

ah , break.
it's been good. it really does go by fast, but that's okay. i miss school friends when i'm home, but i'm content here. i tend to be happy when i'm at school and not ready for break and then i come home and i'm pretty happy here and not necessarily ready to go back.

i love to sit here by my window...it's the epitome of midwest-ness out there (except there's no cows, hmmm oh well) but i love to see it. i can see forever...just fields and fields and trees and sky...a few stray cars now and then, but it's soothing to hear them drive by. on days like today i can see the raindrops sticking to the tree branch out my window and see the puddles all around...and later in the afternoon the sun will start to go down and the sunset is gorgeous through the trees and it gives my room this golden glow....and then at night the stars will come out...theyre so bright out here....and it's all so peaceful! mountains are pretty and canyons are awesome, but theres just something serenely beautiful about midwest scenery.
hmm that was sappy.

well, i think this break has almost accomplished it's purpose....i came home really, really drained in so many ways and i'm feeling recharged. amazing what sleeping and thinking and praying and sleeping all day can do for a person. i thought of lots of questions over break...about life, and motives, and emotions, and choices. i think i even came to some conclusions. came up with some goals for next semester. we'll see what happens. it's been good to catch up on time with God over break....it's different when life's at a slower pace...gives me more time to think about what i'm learning...not at all that He doesnt teach me when life is going faster, because i definitely learn then too....i just don't get the time to sit around and ponder it like i do over breaks. it kinda reminds me of the story about Elijah about when he was waiting for God and He wasn't in the huge wind or the earthquake or the fire, but He was in the gentle whisper. not really the same thing, but it reminds me of that...the whole "Be still and know that I am God" thing i think.

it's been a good day. haven't really done much, but welcome to break =). but it was a good night. sometimes God answers prayer in ways that i don't really understand what changed, but i can tell that He changed me. and last night was like that...i had lots of random dreams haha, but i woke up with a change of heart i spose. odd huh? but good...
He is Good =), break is helpful, friends are great...life is nice. the end.